the road to hell is paved with good intrentions

10:15PM

so i've been sorta busy lately. lets see school started..dont worry i'm already planning how to burndown the school but save the theatre. not all that much exciting in my life. i have alot of depression right now though. the bigest think is dillon. basically he changed plans with out telling me, my mom ended up driving me down to the amc for nothing. i could have spent more time with someone i havent seen i 2 years and he tried to tell me that he tried to call me twice on the cell when i had it in my hands the hole time i was so pissed at that time i just coldent say anything elce to him at the time he called, if i was able to talk he would have been bitched at so much. so i called him like abiliion times on the way back and he finally calls me back and says he dident pick up beacuse he was in the middle of the movie. oh and another think i call him to tell him that i would be like 5 or 10 min. late so i ask him to buy me a ticket and i would pay him back when i get there. and he wouldent he said he dient want to have to miss the beginning of the movie while waitng for me to get there will when i get there the movie is sold out. and than starts the hole thing listed above. so basically i'm not taking to him untill HE confronts me and i'm telling him that from now on if he wants to be my best friend like he clames he is than he has to call me and make plans cause i'm sick of making them and he just blows me off like i'm so retard that wont care.

but other than that i have nothing going on except for the richmond parade tomorrow....grrrrr

i think i'm dont...
Sam

12:03AM

wow end of the summer u kno how it is...really busy...with the foot ball game and all the super sweet parties i went to *ashley i missed u so much i had a blast, evan if your pool was like below 0* chirs was also amazing except for the fact that he was annoyed by some people. thankfully i wasent one cause before i left he said that he was glad that i cam ecause i was one of the people he actually wanted to come. but yah anyways i'm sopost to be working for my aunt starting tomoro so what ev. blaaa work on a farm..blaaa..

i broke up with justin yesterday it just wasent working with the long distance thing. blaaa

yah thats about it becides all the parties end of summer isent all the exciting.

7 more days till back to school.

I think i'm done...
Sam

1:49PM

so from my last entry u saw that i have a boyfriend!!! his name is justin casillas, he's 16 and lives in california....*thats the only bad part bout him..where he lives* the really cool thing about him *along with losts of other thigs of couse* is his brother was the first drummer for green day and he subs in for the guitarest sometimes!! he's bout 6'1" and he is really strong. he's a sophmore just like my and i meet him a EYE. IF u have any questions i will be more than happy to answer them but i had to wake up early today so i'm going to go take a nap cause i havent gotten that much sleep in the past week so i will talk to u all later
love ya,
Sam

8:36PM

so i'm at EYE right now and oh my freaking gosh i have a boy friend!!! hehehehe i'm so shocked it happened!!! hehehehe oh well i have to go to the dorm now before i get locked out!!!!
i love u all an miss u all!!
love,
Samantha Mae Wilson, the luckest girl in the wold!!!

10:28PM

so i kno i havent wrote in a really long time but i've been either not fealing good or busy. gosh. so yesterday i went to pick chalkey up/ go to a budget meating for the diecious. i'm so happy they have a final date for the last good by for gordonwood its october 1st. woot. on and i'll going out there with permition sat. to get old t-shirts, frizbees, pens, ect.. wow i just got really tired so i'm going to go to bed i want to write more but oh well i will before i leave sudnay for EYE.

I think i'm done...
Sam

10:08PM

pilgramage was pretty sweet..i'll explain more later
its just i cant sit up for long times cause

on thursday i got me appendix out and it still really hurts!!!:(
i have 3 wounds and on in my belly button, 1 direcatly under it, and one on the left side..
if u would like to kno more details bout the opperation just let me know its really intresting with the hole blowing my stomach up with carbon dioxide thingy..
well
I thik i'm done...
Sam

10:10PM

AAAHHHHHH i need to not be busy!!!
Friday: standing birdcage show...need i say more...woooo!!
Sat.: went to cousen's grad. party...saw joe...hehehehe...*shifty eyes* i dident do anything...
Sun.: went to church..the last one befor i leave..ahhhhh
today: 1/2 day. 2 finalls super easy. layed out in the sun for bout 3 hrs. got tan...well tan for me..
tomoro: go to emilys, get liz's prensents, go shopping for other things i need for the trip.
wend.: last day of school, go to liz's woot woot, stay the night.
thurs: go to zoo with liz, oh man crazyness, get picked up
friday: pack/ get blood drawn for testing..ewwww
sat: wake up at like 7:30, and leave to go to north carolina. ewwww

so this is probley going to be the last post till i get back. i will miss u all. so leave a post,
I think i'm done...
Sam

9:43PM - cholacate coved rasberry's are really good...especally white!!!

Llama llama llama llama llama llama duck...have u ever seen a llama? touched a llama? huged a llama..llama llama llama llama llama llama llama llama llama duck!!
sigh i heart that song!!!!
so yah this week is going ok..its really lonly with out my seniors there:( i miss u all so much!!
i've been ok i've came to the conclusion that i can only feel when i'm happy other than that i dont feel anything.
i go to liz's wends. so that really exciting, especially since we're going to the zoo!!! oh yah thats right the zoo!!!!
friday there is a show at the standing birdcage.. i'm so going..me dillon and adam*he's not moving i'm not lettin him* as a matter of fact. its a dollor if u dont have a date...i'm wondering how this is going to work out...oh well!!! hehe i get to be the pimp for a cople of seconds..wait no i dont want to....ahhhhhh!!! help!! i'm being ambushed!!! ahhh!!! heheeh oh well i'm out

I think i'm done...
Sam

10:36PM

so i went to the dr's on thurday, and he said that they cant say what is causeing this yet cause i gosta have some blood work done and see a shink. but i'm on some meds that are making me really tired.

yah theatre banquet was awsome....really sad but still really sweet.
went shoping today go some nifty things
*2 shirts
*1 skirt to go with both shirts *yes i got a skirt*
*2 pair drum sticks, 1 core and 1 reg.

yah thats bout it
I think i'm done...
Sam

8:55PM

yah so i'm ok its really had trying to keep going till thursday...

but yah this weekend was fun
fri-
*went to derric's play...i'm still confuised
*sleeped alot in the car, thankfully i'm so short i can fit comfie on the back seet!!!
sat-
*battle of the bands...amazing...i'm so proud!!! *i was actally told i was acting like a proud mother*
*went back to dillon's played cards for a while..my head still hurts...owww
*went to haley's spet the nite!!oh fun..
Sun-
*went to hall of fame *i just watched...heheh u actally thought i dance...hahhahaha your funny*
*extreamly proud..."dillon i love u this much more because u can irish step dance and cause u wore a bright shinny purple shirt"
*dillon drove me back to his house *well actally his mom did but hey i ant complaining* played cards again..more owwww. but i totally one!!!!
*came home did things w/ me sister..fun times...good food.
*sleeped
Mon-
*nothing to exciting...
except for the fact that i'm rooming with sweet people for the band trip next year!!woot woot!!!

i only feel the way i do when i'm not arround people...
I think i'm done...
Sam

10:52PM

wow this weekend was amazing....wow i just realized who tired i am so i'll write bout it later
peace
I think i'm done...
Sam

10:24PM

so i told my mom bout what i've been doing and i'm getting help now...

so i just finished a project that i've been working on since i got home and ofcourse my dod steps on it and recks it....damn her so i had to redo it...errrrrrr...so it took me 7 hours to complete 2 poster boards with covers..errrrr

well i'm off to get some sleep so i can give my speech tomoro in class...with my nifty posters that look awsome except for the hole in it!!! hehee..u really cant tell anymore though

well
I think i'm done...
Sam

10:26PM

*sigh* besides all of the things in the last post things are ok..
i going to EYE this summer..for sure now...hahaha jesse my name is befor yours...heheeh..jk love ya..
went to rachels party today..it was really fun...
amanda's party was cancled today due to the rain...bummer
so i satayed at rachel's for the HOLE time!!!

yah well i'm off, peace
I think i'm done...
Sam

9:12PM

things have been so crapy lately that i dont kno what to do anymore..i've tried to over come so of these things but it seems impossible.. i really dont kno what to do..i need help....i think what i really need is suport form my friends....

things that have happened...
-my cousen has left home *he's 17* and has not been see for bout a week now...my aunt seems to think its due to drugs..
-because of that me parents are stressed and are taking it out on me...
-i kno for a fact that one of my best friends, who will remain nameless, is lying to my face...
-is ok but adds on* i dident get the solo with dillon for the choir concert..i went in and asked him y today and he said the only reason is because of the grade thing witch i think is a load of crap considering there is a trio and out of that three two are doing an additional song..
yup deffetntly stoping for now

i think i'm done...
Sam

7:47PM

i think one of me best friends is lying to me...and what makes it worse its to my face...

so i just got back form a mile bike ride, considering i havent done any type of sport since the fall it felt really good to be able to do that...tomoro i'm goign for 2...

school has been alright becides above. i have all a's. and they are mostly high ones so i feel really good about that.
monday is our choir concert, 8:00 romeo high aud. i'll kno tomoro if dillon and i got the solo.....i really hope so i dont want to let him down again..i kno i probley wont but it would feel like i did.

well i'm going to go shower cause i smell right now.
I think i'm done...
Sam

10:40PM

wow i am soooooo tired...the middle school's play was tonite and being the good person i am i decided to help out. i was sopost to run the spots *not actually using them but telling them when their cues were* but nooo cause furby was all like...no its mine....errrrrrr....
so i have 2 adutions tomoro one for a solo *dillon is playing guitar for me* and the other one is for our closing song *just a small one some where mixed in with the song*
so this weekend *or more like tomoro* me and my sister are going to go se hitcherhickers *my second time, her first* so if u want to come just show up at the romeo theatre at 7:00

i think i'm done...
Sam

9:39PM

so today was ok. i went babysitting for two kids, a boy of age 4 and a girl of 18 months. wow the girl was a pain in the ass and the boy was at the stage in life were he doesnt like girls cause they are icky. first the girl would not stop crying, than she would not eat cause she would rather see it on me...than the boy spilled pop all over my pants...and she cryed more and wouldent go back to sleep...the parents came home and i practly ran out the door.

yesterday i say hitchickers...my head still hurts... than we went back to jessie's after stopping at mc.ds and they ended up comming to my house and watching movies....one of the movies just so happened to be the Princess Bride..oh how i love that movie..lets just say by the end of the movie kelly was convinced she was going to merry westly.

well
I think i'm done...
Sam

huray for ego boost *and u all better do this so u can see how hard i'm going to think bout this*
01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you. ((My add-I will name a memory I had with you))
02. I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.
03. Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
04. Last, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. Put this in your journal

9:52PM

3 = HAVE DUN
X= HAVE NEVER
?= NOT TELLING
(3) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK
(x) I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT
(x) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(x) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(X) I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR
(3) I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN LOVE
(x) I NEVER HAD SEX
(X) I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC
(x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED
(x) I NEVER SHOPLIFTED
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED
(x) I NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT
(X) I NEVER HAD A THREESOME
(x) I NEVER BEEN SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE
(X) I NEVER BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY)
(X) I NEVER BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING
(X) I NEVER PISSED ON MYSELF
(X) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(x) I NEVER BEEN ARRESTED
(X) I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER
(X) I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB
(X) I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE
(3) I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND
(X) I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
(x) I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL
(X) I NEVER SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER
(X) I NEVER BEEN SKYDIVING
(x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPSTER DIVING
(X) I NEVER PUT MY PANTS ON MY HEAD RANDOMLY
(X) I NEVER WALKED IN ON FRIENDS HAVING
SEX
(X) I NEVER WALKED IN ON MY PARENTS HAVING SEX
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN CAUGHT HAVING SEX
(X) I NEVER EGGED A PT CRUISER OR HONDA ELEMENT
(3) I NEVER LIED JUST TO COVER MY OWN ASS
(3it was an ooppsie) I NEVER CUT SOMEONE AND MADE THEM BLEED
(3) I NEVER tryed to kill my self
(3)I NEVER TOLD SOMEONE I LOVED THEM JUST TO MAKE ME OR THEM FEEL BETTER
(X) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH TWINS
(X) I NEVER WATCHED PEOPLE HAVING SEX
(x) I NEVER BROKE A BONE

so things arnt going so well right now..i'm really sick

so i'll right more later

i think i'm done...
Sam

4:53PM

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i'm so increadbly bored right now and i sould probley get off the internet. things are still shitty but my sister's comming home so thats something to look foward to....

I think i'm done...
Sam

p.s. i really like the pens that go click one!!! i also like how stage crew and tech are on there when they are paractily the same thing!!!

9:48PM

i'm really hating life right now...
-liz cant come the hole weekend *i'm ok with*
-chalkey cant come at all *i'm very disappointed but i'm ok with*
-my parents try to pick fights with me just so i can get mad....they want to ground me!!!
-people are breaking promises left and right *liz and chalkey i understand, jesse has somewhat of an reason*
-school is going so bad i hate it....my i try to get my hw done for my classes but usually when i get home i'm so tired it dont evan kno what im doing
-i got a B on a band test...for those of u who dont have reinhard the only way u get a b is if u dont kno what your are doing and come in the next day for 1/2 of a grade....
-i cant go to dillons dance recital anymore
-sigh there are so many more but my hand hurts....long story

good things that have happened this week...
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wow that was exciting.

i think i'm done...
Sam